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Monday, January 31, 2005
discipline sux...
got into quite a fair amt of trouble today...first period Joogal came into our base class saying got spot check.. and everyone juz went scrambling to put everythin on us in place...while he called random names...so vic and a few others were asked to go toilet and tuck in their shirts and stuff...and when it was my turn to stand up...my stupid drawstring was showing!. so he went "do i see a drawstring...go toilet and take it out NOW!...so there i was with vic trying to tuck in our shirts...when its so short lars. well. at least he was so engrossed with my blouse. he forgot my earrings, ear holes, coloured socks and skirt...

Mdm was talking to us abt university admission criteria today...well the onli thing u need to get into NUS arts psychology course is 'O' level math. but competition is so crazy...i wonder how i'm ever gonna pass my A levels well enuff to get in!.

its terrible not having a drawstring the whole day. coz ur blouse juz keeps dropping out. i tink it looks even more sloppy without it. -_-.

bio spa was ok...at least i had time to slack...abt 15-20 min. when b4 tt this chem teacher gave me tt annoying loook and said ur skirt is V V SHORT. my gosh la. if its tt short. Joogal long ago pick on it already right...

hmmm. think i'm slowly getting in the 'high' mode for squash and training...which is gd in a way...i miss the feeling i had when i was at my peak in sec3...when everythin seemed to be going so well...

well...better finish up my chem tutorials b4 tuition laters...

"I am not my own, but belong, body and soul, in life and in death, to my faithful saviour Jesus Christ" - some devotion book.

Juannnn [5:49 PM]
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Sunday, January 30, 2005
bio tut...
tts wad i gotta do after this short entry...tml's BIO SPA. and i'm like how unprepared. sigh. i tink my Spa's gonna pull my A level grades down lars.thinking tt i probably retain last yr...i juz din put much thought into doing well for SPA. can't stand it!...the 1987 batch seems to be the guinea pig for the education ministry. with PW and what nots.

tuition today was less entertaining without sick Jon to add spice...went for lunch with the Chin family...haha...to celebrate Jia hui and Guo hong's b-days...Tony Romas...wah the ribs damn nice...hopped over to Forum to get a 2000 piece jigsaw...haha. but i guess i wun open it till after my As. if not i'll juz get hooked and not do my studies.

reached church super early... worship had nice songs.s...haha. esp. the one on my blog...and now that i got the casting crowns cd frm Shir...SHIR! mayb u wun get it back!. HAHA. jk. but i think their songs are realli quite meaningful... anyways...u guys did a gd job for worship...1st worship for main...and many more to come in 2005. haha...

sermon was gd today...haha i tink its one of the few times that i'm totally awake...but i think the joke abt the henpecked husbands were realli quite farnie. B-asic I-structions B-efore L-eaving E-arth...not the first time i heard it...but it does make quite a lotta sense...why basic? coz the bible can onli teach u how. but how u intepret it or carry it out is a whole new thing...

haven been in the best of moods lately...seriously J2 is quite tough...hardly haf any free time...one thing comes after another... even my body doesn't get physical rest...frm tt training etc etc etc. yea though it still has that fun element...its tiring me out. and to go on like tt for antoher 10 months or so i think i'll juz die or break down. haha.

b4 Ivan came on fri night...Gerald asked me...so haf u thought of wad u're gonna do after ur As. sure i haf things i wanna do...ever since long ago...but whether its realistic is another thing. i tink i'm gonna miss studying...haha.

hmm...bio tut time...sighz.


Juannnn [10:33 PM]
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Zzzzzzzz...
i'm falling asleeep now...Gym as usual...but it was so much less stressful than last week...on our bodies i meant. wasn't aching at all. minus the squats. well mayb the weights we used are too light for us already. haha. went cafe for lunch...us being so hungry...b4 Mich Fong Zhen Iris and i jumped into the cooling swimming pool at 1pm. with tt hot blazing sun...so i come out looking like a lobster till now. with the whole swimming costume tan...haha. at least i did 10 laps with Mich...b4 Fong and i headed to Jurong pt for a 2nd lunch :X.

well after swimming got a call frm Dav. who is apparently. out of camp. haha. so met him for dinner... well. his bald head is quite amusing... though army's apparently too slack for him...it made him more unfit...he's fallen sick. haha...and while eating dinner we met Chris Tham...who too. has a Bald head. HAHA. this is sth Dav said:

"last time when i went out...i would look out for students in JC uniform...now...when i go out...i juz gotta look for guys with caps...to find "my group" of ppl"

one thing Mich reminded me of is...the question...Is it possible for a guy and girl to be close frens but the relationship is totally platonic...all the way???... dun understand why people dun buy it...if its impossible. then aren't u saying...there aren't any pairs of opp. sex frens who dun "like" each other...

sleepy...sleeeping...


Juannnn [1:14 AM]
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Saturday, January 29, 2005
dead tired...
run run run...tts wad all AC PE teachers know. Gurmit Singh was esp. harsh lars. he made us run 5 rounds round sch blocks...which equals to abt...2km. and so there i was running with piggy...mayb its gd he's so crappy. so we dun feel so tired out and monotonous. passin the void deck and hearing the 5 min bell to recess...and he goes...eh juan! run faster! then can go eat!. -_-

at least i felt more awake after my run...can hardly keep awake in class since i got this stupid throat infection...juz super tired the whole day...

training was worse...2 rounds ROUND the perimeter of ACJC and Fairfield. argH. which is equivilant to abt...2.8km...yea had blisters after running. hope these running actually lowers my 2.4 timing. if not i'll juz DIE. well... at least training's quite productive..

went to church to stand in for Ah Ma Myrtle...haha...then for supper with Gerald and Ivan...whom i abandon very quickly...dad's in a wierd mood today lars...guess he's tired.

anyways...pls continue praying for Auntie Sharon...that God will work miracles on her...

Gym tml...:( but we're going water training or more like swimming afterwards :)...Zzzz


Juannnn [1:18 AM]
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
Achar!
scene: guy looking after his potted plant...

his wife: aiyo...tell u why dun u cut the leaves...
him: you know wad plants like to say to naggy old women
his wife: what?
him: LEeeeAAF me alone!!!


Juannnn [11:28 PM]
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spinning arnd....
after 1 half days...my head's still spinning...haha...and i was super stoned and dazed in sch...but i realli dun wanna miss Mdm Tham's lec...so "dangerous"...Shivali tot i was pissed at her. and XH and Vic tot i was quite dao and quiet...-_-. how amusing...haha...

anyway...got a lift back frm sch today...since my Dad and Mum weren't working...celebrate their anni! haha...and i still end up going to cold storage and strolling arn BP plaza with my mum...i tink i'm like done with my CNY shopping lars..and mum finally got a top for first day of CNY. haha...i bet she wouldn't wear tt colour afer CNY. sigh sigh...

got home and plopped back to bed tired again...and woke at 8 plus realising i had music!. surprisingly the lesson went smoothly without any lectures for once...

seriously haf no mood to do any work today...my free period i was juz staring blankly at my work...doing a few integration ques...and i juz zonked out...sigh...can't conc.!!!

tml's mass Pe and training...hope i dun die...my mum is probably gonne kill me for running etc. ZZzzz...

"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need" -Hebrews4:16


Juannnn [10:29 PM]
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
still on faith...
"Faith is like Electricity...you can't see it...but u can see the Light"...quoted Stella...who quoted a postcard...haha...mayb its more true than my nick...

had giddy spells midway thru sch till now...and i haf 1 day MC!!!. haha...but i'm still going to sch...m i stupid or wad...but i realli dun wanna miss Tham's Lecture...she will juz kill me the nx Lec with her "profound" questions...

Gp mdm was juz crazy this morning...a 50 min test became 30 min and she expected us to hand it up...wth...can pass is can lars i tink...but how to pass like normal...my term grades are gonna suffer...ponned math and juz stayed in the library to do work for rest of the sch day...till PCCG period...

while in the lib...Farrah and Hae Sung came joining us..and we juz started talking...not normal girl gossip k...its more on...our views. haha...i neva expected myself to talk to hae sung esp. or more like neva expected her to start on these topics...i'm happy for her!. haha today's her third month with Divian...miss both of u man...SD4's so quiet without u guys. though she probably wouldn't see this...but she's one of the few "pioneers" of our free period gang...talking to her made me realise even more how much u need to give and take in a relationship...

went westmall with Vic...with the intention of buying a few things...but we ended up going to even more shops...haha...and i juz went home in a daze with my head dying...and slept frm 4 plus till 8pm...so i got dragged downstairs to the Doc by my mum...

anyways..got my new racket!!!. after breaking my 11 month precious...i decided to change the brand...wilson rackets more and more cannot make it!. haha...ya mayb its the singer not the song huh. its quite sad...to see the fire in all of us slowly fade...after 5 yrs in squash...i might turn up for all the trainings...but i guess the push to excel isnt' there anymore...coz u know wads in reality...like eg. the india trip...thinking of it i seriously dun regret...for once i tink i'm getting my priorities right...studies b4 squash..my mum used to say...if u studied like u play squash...u would get 8 A1s lars. haha...if i went India...MAYB i would've achieved recognition and some "fame"...but its such a big MAYB and wad are these compared to so many other things which are way more important than those...i tink we're training v. hard now...but our efforts can be better...lets bag the championships this yr and we dun need to pay for our expensive attire then!!!. haha...

i guess i will go to sch tml...go pack pack...


Juannnn [10:41 PM]
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
sick...
so life is full of non-coincidences such that coincidences become coincidences...according to albert...but how true is tt?...yea i guess both of us had different views on that...u might say why is there even a God...everythin happens coz they happen...not coz HE made them happen....but tts why u need to haf Faith in him...he's realli been good to me ever since i got to know him...people's testimonials speak...miracles speak...all abt the gdness of this God we all know...

having a real bad headache now...lost my voice this morning...:(...

it was great getting to see all SC ppl during combine schs meeting today...both ex and present...haha...everyone frm JC seemed to congregate back to their sec sch groups...i miss that feeeling...well. at least i got to miss chinese and PE legally...training was slack...but circuit is so sianned...arms are aching like mad frm all the pushups pull ups etc etc etc...

met Gabriel at the busstop on e way back..with his goofy face and all...and got to see some unglam photos of CALEB e PIG...and other SJC ppl. hahaha.

everyone's sick...and poor Dav is sick and dying in the army. hahaha. ok shall pary for him...hee

shower time...b4 i pia the rest of my GP package for tml's test...and go sleeep.

Juannnn [9:29 PM]
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Life...
so what is life?...non-coincidental incidents?...tts how u get coincidental incidents...when the non-coincidentals dun happen. It seems to make sense...but how true izzit?...coincidences happen...but dun they happen for a reason? doens't EVERYTHIN happen for a reason...

to be continued...Zzz


Juannnn [1:15 AM]
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Monday, January 24, 2005
wad a slack day...
today's so boring...ponned math lec...seemed like ponning the whole day's lectures...onli turned up for 4 tutorials today...but it made up the whole day's lessons...

for once...three of us tried eating Lunch instead of Recess...it was terrible lars...double GP my stomach was growling like mad...and by the time lunch time came...i had this terrible gastric pains...argh.

yay...get to miss double PE and double Chinese tml...since the few of us are let off to go MGS for combined schs meeting...

better start doing my tutorials...

nice sweet story...http://www.pconline.com.cn/pcedu/carton/xp/0405/379469.html...


Juannnn [7:32 PM]
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
Zzz...
wonder y i'm soo tired these days...stressing over A levels?...i dunno...for once i finished all my work b4 time and actually pass them up...but i still seem to have much time...hmmm. Auntie Kar Foon's apparently "noticed a change" in me...she keeps saying i look tired. which is true...but why i'm not sure myself...and today she even asked me out for coffee or sth...to talk...saying that i haf somewhat "lost the joy" she could see in me b4...haha...i'm curious to know why too...but izzit true??? but sometimes i tink outside i may appear happy and everythin...but deep down otherwise...

still aching like mad frm gym...can hardly walk down the stairs...tuition was more lively with Vic and vivien haha compared to me stuck with 2 guys...but Jon and the other guy was quite farnie this morning...cracking lame jokes...

anyways...mel! u did a gd job with worship lars...dun worry soo much.

wells...my cell gonna "visit" my house on the 13th Feb...CNY visitation...dun die when u guys see my messy rooom or sth.

anyways...congratulations to Tim and Hui min!...though its not v. secret today already. haha...and thx for the LIVE STRONG band...

one thing i learnt today... Faith is not SEEING yet BELIEVING...see that IAN!!!. i REMEMBER ok...haha...stop saying i'm blur and forgetful...Kangdi took over tt place already. :p

Juannnn [10:04 PM]
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gym = :(
neva been physically this tired for a long long time!. its not aching aching...but whole leg pain and hot aching!. gym was seriously damn crazy...all of us girls were so shagged we couldn't even go on with training...even Mr Tan let us off and joined us for lunch. haha...the guys are power man...after gym go eat lunch rest for 2hours and train...5 pound weights are mad lars...esp. when u gotta do sooo many repetitions and sets...my fav. is still the Lat pull downs. haha...aiyo. this torturing better show some nice results...not muscles popping out...like wad i can feeel in my thigh now...argh~~~.

lunch was gd!. haha yum yum...Ah Tan kept trying to tempt me with his fried rice...grr...and we decided to go suntec to check out our competition skirts and top...which turned out to be futile trip...coz they din even carry tt "Grey skirt" Zhen was telling us to look for...but i stumbled upon this pair of adidas climacool shoes!. haha which happen to be 30 bucks cheaper than the new balance one i was eyeing...naturally my mum was happy enuff to ask me to buy it...

Mich had to leave....so Fong and i spent the rest of the afternoon shopping arnd...one shop became a few shops and a few shops became many...so i got jeans frm B.U.M haha plus..i found my GRANOLA in Carrefour!. and being the "nice" sister i m...i bought my brother ankle socks.

music practice was okay...but i was super tired out...with a slight headache...hope i din seem that irritated and reluctant to play Mel!. sorri...Macs Twister fries are yummy...but i tink i'm allergic to themmm :(.

i think my relationship with my Bro has been improving...i guess he's maturing and i'm beginning to change my thinking...first time i took a bus with him today..since he had training at ACSI at 9am too...if u talked abt a yr ago...my mum would neva let tt happen...in case we end up quarreling on the bus. hahaha.

tired tired.................still gotta go tuition tml...ZZZzzz


Juannnn [12:23 AM]
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Friday, January 21, 2005
shopping till i drop
wah damn tired...woke up at 9.15am and chiong to IKEA...to buy bookshelf for my room...plus many other small items. haha including a quilt cover...frm 11-2pm lehs...crazy...and my "amusing" Dad and bro...happily went to Drive the car outta anchorpoint and end up...can't find a parking lot in queensway...so we juz decided to go off...

mum and i went Bugis to shop...Rach and her mum met us soon after...walk here walk there...leg so pain...but din buy much...haha. well got this top...i tink my mum's wierd today..she walked in the shop...pulled tt top out...say quite nice...but the price wasn't v. nice lor. at least not to her...and she happily paid for it!.

rach's mum was wierd too...she juz shooed Rach to go dinner with me since i was meeting Tim Hui min Shir and Ian...and even gave her $$$ to shop. haha...so there we went to Mos burger for dinner...in which 6 of us squeezed into a 4 seater table...stupid Ian!!! u got me hooked on the fish burger...yum yum. but the fries were hard. hmmm

end up going arcade to play bishibashi...hui min's fav game on earth...and air hockey...then we went shopping!. at guess where. FOX again. haha...

gym and training tml...so sians... i hope gym will be a 1 half hour session tt i look forward to every sat frm now...wonder wad kinda program the trainers haf for us...haha. my poor bao bei cracked...now getting a new one frm Mr Koh...so tml gotta put up with my Dad's cranky old racket...sigh sigh.


Juannnn [11:41 PM]
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Thursday, January 20, 2005
running...running
i tink this is the first thursday i had such fruitful free periods...managed to finish my alcohols tut and my 3 bio essays...yay~.

even better news...i DIN SEE LIM SEE POI(LSP) today!!!...tts sth worth being happy abt...hee

decided not to drop chi...coz they're juz taking assignments to make up ur term exam mark...so why not right...hah...

amusing incident...Moses and Meow attempted to hit me today again and succeeded...so Moses happily ran in front of 2 teachers thinking i wun dare to try anythin funny in front of them and i juz pinched him...moses went *SQUAWK* damn loud. and i got away with it. hahaha. while the teachers apparently stared after us...

ran abt 5-6km juz now with Nick...amazing stamina he has...after running 10+++ Km b4 running with me...and he BLuff me lar. say got wad new route...so we took a turn..and he purposely made me run even further and back to the same place...but its gd..exercise more...

can't wait to go shop shop tml...haha then can meet the YE peeps for dinnerrr...yum.


Juannnn [10:35 PM]
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Live by Faith
i think its super important...sometimes in life...u can't base everything on concrete evidence, on what u see or what u hear. sometimes...u gotta put ur trust and hope in things...trusting that God will lead u to the right path...coz as said...he has already planned ur life out for u...i believe as long as u trust...u wun go wrong...

sometimes...what may seem wrong to u for the moment...may be for the better in time to come...at the end of it all...u'll see the most beautiful picture God has led u to paint in ur life...

though this may not be relevant to what my principal Mrs Chan shared when sch first started...she said...live ur 2 yrs in JC...such that u get a beautiful picture when u leave ACJC...i tink it applies this way as well...theres nth more satisfying than that...

dunno why i'm saying all these...at 12.30am...falling asleep...but the sudden urge to write this down. haha...

"You will go onyour way in safety, and your foot will not stumble" -Proverbs3:23

Juannnn [12:20 AM]
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
SICK PEVERTIC OLD MAN!!!

during maths tut...desperate old man LSP...

LSP: so...squash champion...i saw u at espirit that day on Sat. u went there right ME: er ya... LSP: wah go there shop ah...i see u my face red. LSP: go there dun let principal see...later she jealous ME: okaaay... LSP: so...wad did u buy? ME:. nth lar. LSP: why never buy anythin? too expensive ah? or nothing to buy...i always pay for my GF... LSP: aiya why u never say u wanna buy sth...i wanted to pay for u. next time ok?. ME: *SICK OLD MAN*. OKAaaayyyy dreading every math tut...totally sux...and today he was writing on the board and suddenly juz commented. AYE my pants are dropping. WTH.! seriously man...u're 70+++ and u're so dirty minded and pervertic and desperate!. sch's monotonous....i thnk i need more sleeep...juzcame back frm shopping with Sam again. haha. i tink she's one of the few ppl that can shop with for the whole day lars... tml's last day of sch for the week yay~~~...

Juannnn [10:36 PM]
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Monday, January 17, 2005
another monday...

sch as usual today...i guess coz of some "group"...the rest of my class seems to be closer...everyone's realli bucking this yr...no more slackers...ok not no more. zhuping still sleeps in class. haha. but i think everyone's actually doing their work and we know our stuffs for once.

feel a sense of achievement...managed to finish numerical methods tutorial question on my own! haha...

oh no...2.4 time taking tml...soo soo dead...how to get below 13...pray tt i'm still alive after training tml k...

Mrs Creffield's husband passed away after falling when he was rock climbing....pls pray for her to be able to take things in her stride and revert smoothly back to her life...pray also that her husband will find peace in e Lord...straits times page3. Sunday Times.

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live. but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." -Galatians2:17-21

Juannnn [11:58 PM]
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study...

did loads of stuff since friday man...haha. mass PE is getting more slack ...and SD4 is qutie funny...we were made to do half squats...and Shi Jia and Judy juz led our whole class into singing to kill the pain our thighs. while the rest of the classes looked at us with amusement.

met Sam at city hall...and we had this super nice dinner at Cartel...then we rushed down to Tiong Bahru thinking we were quite late and onli Rach and Jon were there.

went to Third Place to listen to Moses Joash Joel and their band...u guys did a gd job!. quite a few Ac ppl there...haha...the place's quite cool man...and we got to play a little bit of pool at the end. b4 going to Tiong Bahru plaza for supper at Macs.

Sat went to Orchard frm 8.30am-10pm...craziness...went to Bank...cut hair...shopping...then met Sam at 3pm for more shopping and piercing!. haha. not bad i guess...got 5 things for abt 60+++ bucks.

today went for tuition again...haven waken up at 8am on a Sun morning for sooo long. but i din wanna be late for tuition and make ppl wait again. haha. turns out tt it was Jon tt i saw at Macs at Lot1 tt day. and he juz kept saying i'm damn dao. Numerical Methods so confusing. but i tink Integration is gonna kill even more. :(

YE was ok...i tink bible study was gd!. haha...juz tt mayb we had too short a time and too little questions. went for main service...finally the msg makes some sense to me. haha Discipleship. What makes a gd disciple...haven tot of tt yet...

i think YE did well for our first time fasting as a group...must Thank God for showing mercy...now tt Auntie Sharon's getting better. :)

ok...its like 2 weeks gone frm January 2005..and i'm not working hard enuff...seriously i dunno wad will be able to spur me on to work hard...other than the fact tt its super near exams and i NEED to STUDY.


Juannnn [12:05 AM]
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
chinese no more!!!

HAHA. i've officially DROPPED CHINESE. but chinese movies in sch now are so interesting. today's the slack day again...juz 4 periods.

went for tuition...cleared up my math chapters...:) then slowly trudged my way to ACSI. walked in. and saw this BIG group of guys at the squash courts. got a shock. turned back and started to walk out when i heard. "HUI JUAN!!! What u doing here!". turned. saw Tim Chan. and the rest of the ACJC squash guys. haha. so it wasnt tt boring after all. got company.

i tink my family's jinxed by the AC schs. i fell down last week and beginning of the yr last yr. my bro fell today. haha while WALKING. even more amusing than my story. apparently so many ppl fell across the chain there. its a tradition already.

Some ppl seriously juz can't stop bitching lar. in fact BLATANTLY BITCHING in OUR faces this morning. PLS its so obvious. when u look at us then talk. who else are u talking abt man. don't u get sick of it. looking at ppl so superficially. ur dictionary is not wad ppl use. f*** is not a cool word. calling urself a bitch is not cool.

so tired today. last call for anyone who wanna go Third Place tml to see sth. at 7pm. hee.


Juannnn [10:31 PM]
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
nth much...

slept the most yest night but woke up the more tired this morn...*yawnz*. half asleep during Bio lec...though stuff did get thru my head...time b4 recess seemed to take eternity. 5 periods. longest in a week.

i keep leaving stuff in my locker and go for lesson. grr. and my classroom's on 6th floor. went down with Shivali to get my student portfolio. and while walking into a lift. stupid MEOW went to hit my head with his stupid file. so loud lar!. the whole lift lobby everyone turned and looked. then b4 the door closed he stuck his skinny legs thru the door!. :p. who ask u to be one of the fastest runners in sch. if not i would've 'killed' u.

finally met 1SD4. i dunno wad to comment. juz seem foreign. meeting at the bleaches juz doesn't seem as "close" as meeting in a class. all seem so quiet...gonna play angle mortal game. but SOME ppl juz love choosing their mortals eh. yea go ahead.take ur time pick the cutest mortal u wan...as long as u shut ur mouth bitching arnd abt other ppl. i think the whole sch will love u to bits once u/u guys do tt. seriously man, if BITCHING is ur LIFE. then dun come to sch. its for ppl to socialise and learn, not backstab and bitch.

went to squash meeting...gonna sell ice cream to raise funds for our coaching fee!. but must wait till nx term. :( gonna get team jackets soon! i hope. haha. adidas is nice..but way outta budget man...

went to bugis with Mich Fong Zhen and Iris after to source for jackets...the price is so not nice lar. then we spent like 2 hours ++ chatting in the food court. haven talked to them like this for so long...makes me recall the times in the past when we used to stay back after training till 8pm chit chatting.

haven done much since i got home...but there realli isn't much work to be done. wondering if i should still drop chinese. either way its juz one more month...hmm.


Juannnn [10:06 PM]
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
lazy...

tues's a long long day...but it seemed to pass quite well today...and i managed to complete quite a bit of work...so proud of myself! managed to do my chem tut all by myself!. haha. watched this quite nice chinese movie during chi lec...PE was ok...but horrible for a double period lar!. he made us throw shot put. and my throwing is horribly wrong coz of my squash strokes. then thinking PE was over he happily said. ok! now u all can proceed to Oldham wing to do ur little exercises. v. easy. juz 30 sit ups 15 push ups and 50 squats. after finishing he said. ok tts one set. u can do one more at ur own time now. as a group pls. aching like mad

for once i'm quite free at night...without any work "waiting"...finished my 1100 words...and juz talking to Derrick abt disturbance of "evil spirits". happened tt devotions today is abt Faltering Faith...seriously i ask myself who would u turn to when u face this kinda problem. i tink its tough making Prayer the first thing ...and tts somewhat a "loss in faith"...coz ppl say if u encounter these problems...juz pray and ask the "thing" to go away in the name of Jesus. but other than tt i would choose to call a person to come pray with me first and give me assurance. Loads to think abt this man...hard to understand...

"Yet he did not waver thru unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave GLORY to God being fully persuaded that God had power to do what He had promised" -Romans 4:20-21

Juannnn [11:57 PM]
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happy happy happy...
Pastor barnables was quite funnily lame this morning...for once i was awake during chapel. hall was super hot. i tink its juz me. coz i was under the spotlight -_- . haf been irritating in class i tink...keep coughin to clear my throat. lessons seriously seem to be getting into my head finally...or izzit juz for now. keeping away frm food ain't easy man. esp. when u haf gd frens who eat like pigs. hahaha. and they're hungry during class they'll say. mmm. i gonna eat yong tau foo...i gonna eat chicken rice...i gonna drink fruit juice...haha left my precious in this 6th level class...and i happily went down to void deck for free period...and opened my locker with xiaohui and realised. why is my hand so empty. then i juz dumped my sweater and book on her and dashed 6 floors up to save it. haha. damn tired after tt man. discipline's been super strict lar...wonder wads going on with the teachers...last week for my skirt...today talking to squash Mdm...and she lectured Zhen on her 5 earring in 1 hole. then turned to me and said. U another one. how many studs u wan on ur ear. sigh. 1 yr and no one said anythin lar. ran 2.4 after sch...felt like eternity...i tot i gonna faint lar...haha. my phelgm was in my throat. argh. juz finished chionging 7 weeks of 1100 words for GP -_-. hopefully i manage to find time to finish the rest tml ... chem tut seems undoable. no matter how much i seem to understand the lecture. i hope this is not a bad start. how can ppl juz talk bad and gossip abt someone right in their face...without even batting an eyelid. its quite shocking. lived with it for 1 yr...sometimes i wonder wad they say behind my back man. hearing wad they say abt practically everyone tt cross their pathway. Zzzz...:)

Juannnn [12:04 AM]
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Sunday, January 09, 2005
life's complicating....

hmmms. i was a little late for tuition as usual again...feel so bad. kept those 3 guys waiting.

church was usual...but Moses, Joash, Joel, Melvin and Ian played..."advertising" for their performance this coming fri...14th 7pm...so anyone interested?...think i'm going down with Sam...then i went for main service!. i forgot if this is one of my new yr resolutions...but anyway. i'll try to go for main service as much as possible.

i feeel even more relieved now...coz i juz sent an sms to someone..i felt i owe an apology to...for wad? i also not sure. but i tink he knows wad i'm talking abt. sometimes i tink i go overboard without knowing it. sorrri again. i tink many ppl do...but the thing is others dun know.

this yr's been a scary yr. haha i tink i've done a lot of things tt would usually take me a lot of courage to do...in a gd way...its for the better i guess :)

rach...read ur blog...i'm realli touched...*sniff* haha...i miss the past...when we used to stay over...talk a little on the phone...plus our SNAIL MAIL. haha. i tink i lost the letters though...i know u keep some of them. hope u still do at least. it was child talk. but when u read it now i tink it brings back memories. i tink i should apologise to coz over the yrs i've also done things i shouldn't haf. but i tink wad matters is tt our cousin-ship is able to pass thru these storms :). cheer up! we'll talk soon k...mayb even stayover. if ur mum allows. ur Frens may come and go...but ur Kin will always be there with u...whether they like it or not. haha. dun worry u're my fav. couz too. u should b honoured. u got the longest personalised msg on this blog. haha

btw...u should print this out if u wanna hear this stuff again. coz i probably also will not say it in person. and slot it in ur BIBLE too. haha.

sigh sigh...i miss Dav...stupid guy. who ask u book into army so early. then no one listen to my complaints. haha...anyway u should be honoured to be featured here too...this is my msg to u. STOP SLACKING IN CAMP. first day already complain boring. haha...

gonna fast lunch the nx one week for Auntie Sharon...hope God gives me strength to resist all eating TEMPTATIONS...and pray that Auntie Sharon will recover soon...:)

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry abt tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry abt itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -Matthew 6:33-34


Juannnn [10:47 PM]
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first week of e yr...juz gone
like tt...times realli flies.
woke up at 12.30pm today.seriously damn late...usually can't even sleep past 12. nose not much better...but i went to meet my OG peeps anyway. but as usual ppl were late. except Ke xian and Mary anne. so there we went to coffee club xpress to eat and talk. haha...its been almost 6 months since i last saw all of them minus Ke xian. loads of things changed man. Mary Anne "quieter" now...though her laughter still e same. Josh has a GF...quite cute man haha. Hyena aka Yi Yew has new hair style...but still a hyena. Seok neva change lar...plus her loss of voice. went to watch Meet e Fockers with a few of them...but we all had to leave quite early...hope we find time to meet during the hols man. later turn out like Dec hols.
then went to watch Phantom of the Opera with Martin Rach Shaunald Marcus Cass and my Bro...it was gd...yea. but most ppl said it wasn't compared to the real musical.
juz a thought...abt how some ppl may juz simply be acting themselves...but ppl juz see another "motive" in their behaviour...and start to dislike or avoid them. u ask urself why can't ppl tolerate it...or izzit coz they juz can't help being mean?.
isn't it wierd if u apologise to someone for a reason tt u urself duno. but u juz know u haf to.
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perserverence. Perserverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anythin." -James1:2-4

Juannnn [12:08 AM]
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Friday, January 07, 2005
*sniff*
sigh sigh. my flu's back again...somehow. after running at 6km yest...mass pe today seemed scary btu somehow gurmit singh was in a gd mood and Pe was damn lax. ok more lax than usual...it was terrible having to run round the school past the void deck and canteen with everyone looking lar. since the track's under construction...and i was running. running. and suddenly my ankle hooked Shivali's ankle and there i went...skidding on the car park floor. ended up with one leg slightly grazed and few open wounds. so embarrassing!!! and there was this nice guy frm the nx class tt juz came and pulled me up. plus my concerned frens. haha. Piggy was damn idiotic. he said "someone fall down so popular everyone crowd arnd mah. so i saw no need in trying to help u also".
somehow i seem to always fall in the first week of sch in AC.
lessons were ok...at least i understand wads being taught now. i think its juz in me...not to start studying till i know time's running out. i'm still playing and not studying enuff lar..need more discipline and self control. house meeting was BORING!. but anyway i still signed up for competitive x-country for the fun of it plus the pts. haha though i probably clock like the slowest timing.
met Yan Leen Gerald and Shir at city hall after sch...for wad shir said was "coffee" haha. and we strolled arnd to bugis...and i discovered MuJi...they haf cool stuff man. its juz basic colours of white silver or black. so sad i still can't find a pencil case. mayb i should stick to my zipblog. haha.
bought this book...Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder...some philosophical story. i last read a little of it on Star Cruise yrs ago. haha gonna find time to READ!.
then we squeezed like mad into the MRT at the Peak hour and went to Orchard to meet Joel Pang and Derrick...went Lucky Plaza to play poool. lemme tell the whole world
I WON ONE GAME OFF YAN LEEN AND JOEL!!!...simply coz...THEY went to hit their black ball into the wrong hole. Hahaha. Derrick kept trying to be annoying...everytime jinx the ball. enjoyable but couldn't realli enjoy with my nose getting worse and worse.
THEN. i got to try Macs Twister Fries haha. but seriously its nth great. but the way Derrick eats is quite "great". one meal. plus extra burger plus extra drink.
feeling quite happy these few days...to think i realli missed sch quite a bit...haha...can't wait to see my junior class!. SD4 din haf a senior class. this yr's cohort is seriously BIG BIG. 950+++ ppl. now we even haf a SD5 haha and an SB6 i heard. and more.
can't wait for OG outing tml...hope i'll be well by then...i'm talking abt 2004 OG here. haha. haven seen everyone since last sept i tink.
"Do not be anxious about anythin, but in everythin, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present ur requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard ur hearts and ur minds in Christ Jesus" -Philippians4:6-7

Juannnn [11:29 PM]
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Spiritual Warfare?
Keep ur guard up - Satan neva goes off duty?. how true it is...it may sound sccary...in fact its scary. everytime i hear abt this... i recall last may...it was seriously quite freakish hearing chanting and stuffs. sometimes u may tink its u hallucinating. but it juz seems too real?. dun tink that he onli attacks staunch christians...as long as u're a believer. u may fall prey to him... seriously its damn hard. i dunno...once u're faced with the real situation u juz get freaked out. u know that praying to God and calling out to him for help is gonna help. but u're juz too scared to say or do anythin. resort to human help?. in this circumstance is v. tempting. but it also shows how much trust u put in him to help u. "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and self- discipline" -2 Timothy1:1

Juannnn [12:00 AM]
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Thursday, January 06, 2005
Impromptu,No.1 from Quatre morceaux pour piano, Op.25
haha. finally one day i din get caught for my skirt...or anythin else -_-. Monday was Lim Pui Yee. who did this spot check and she complained abt the usual. skirt. earrings.blouse(shoelace). at least she doesn't make a fuss. not like HIM. its like the fourth time since last yr he stopped me lar. at the most crowded places in sch somemore. i mean look arnd and see. i bet 70% of the other girls their skirt's shorter than mine. but ever since he knew my name at colours award, he's been picking at my skirt. and he's rumoured to be pervertic. and yest he happened to see me when i was at the lift lobby. behind JOEL somemore. he was like " you! come here!"."the one behind the tall guy!". and this class juz came into the lift lobby and everyone heard wad he said lar. like "Wait. tell me. do u admit ur skirt is short". i mean can i say no?. haha. and after sch. four of us got caught for walking across the field thx to zhen...who dragged us. HIM:All four squashers right!let me tell u. u guys look like squash balls walking across the field. Zhen: huh? can u repeat. i din hear HIM: argh! nvm. juz dun do it again!. after tt... SHAI: AYE! u neva hear wad he say ah! Zhen: no...what? Shai: He said u looked like a squash ball Zhen: HARRR!?!!?? i love thurs time table...haha its damn slack. its chem lec then frm 8.30-10.30 free bio lec double GP then 12.30-150 free then chinese frm 1.50-2.30...even better news. i get to drop chinese! haha coz i got myO level HC. i tink i'm beginning to conc. better which is gd :). we watched the butterfly lovers cartoon version during chi today...super cute and farnie...though its in chi. anyways i was quite pissed with my Bro this morning...coz of him. i had to walk extra 10mins for the last few days lar. i mean i admit i was a little late for last few days so today i was exceptionally early. so there i was at 6.35 waiting and waiting. and my Bro. had to ans his big business call at 6.40! by the time we got in the car it was 6.50 and my Dad was chionging like mad. i was so scared we get into accident lar. and the nx thing he made me alight with my bro too and i got a scolding for being late?. and my bro happily juz daoed me all the way while walking to ACSI traffic light. grr. super shagged now...physically...all of us ended sch at 1 plus 2...but Mdm made us stay back till 4.30 to meet her for 20 mins!. the usual. attendence fitness. i'm so dead. she wans our 2.4 to be under 13 min. and i'm 25 secs short!. plus she wans 20 incline pull ups. sigh sigh. then Zhen n i went to run like..4-5km outside sch...sometimes i realli dunno if i love or hate running. when u're stressed or tired out mentally after running u juz feel so refreshed and revitalised. then Fong Zhen and i went to the HDB walkway behind sch to do somemore striding...plus mass PE tml. i need sth to push me on!!!. haha suddenly haf a fettish for macaroni these few days...esp. my maid's haha. love her cooking man...i tink i can predict wad Gerald or Yan Leen or Ian or Shir or whoever frm YE will say already :p. juz one question do u Live to Eat or Eat to Live. haha. love my 3rd exam piece...juz started on it today...i tink i seldom get to hear a nice sounding 3rd piece. this is rare. exam's in August...i'm pretty terrified seriously. coz if i dun pass this yr...its not gonna be easy for me to find time nx yr to take my piano exam anymore...my resolution was to practise piano at least 1.5 hours a day but so far haven leh!!!. argh. i'll try k. haha. gotta do my essay now...questions so cheeem wan. anyway, thx Ivan for helping me! this time and last time. haha. "For nothing is impossible with God" -Luke1:37

Juannnn [10:33 PM]
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
brrr.
the weather's getting crazy these few days. rain rain rain...an air con class room feels like the north pole with the window open. haha. i could hardly open my eyes during lesson today...4 periods in a row. b4 one very late recess and free periods all the way till 1.50. i tink my time table on wed is screwed. Mdm asked us to write a list ot "What I Want in my Life for 2005". zhuping: Mdm. i wrote. i will not pon class mdm: ya right zp: realli! i haven ponned any class so far. mdm: hello. its onli the 3rd day of sch! zp: ya hor. i forgot yea and sch was SUPPOSED to end at 1.50. but we had CCA exhibition. or at least me. while 3/4 of my class juz happily went home. met up with Fong Zhen Iris and Shai. and we juz slacked arnd at the badminton hall after lunch till 3.30 when the J1s started streaming in in their Ogs. it was a boring 3 hours lar. we juz sat there with one piece of fulscap..since we already had our players. amusingly. 22 ppl actually juz automatically came and signed up. haha. mayb AC squash has some "fresh" hope afterall. of getting the title back frm RJC :p. i guess Mdm is super intent on tt. since she already called for meeting and PHYSICAL TRAINING tml. *groan*. i end sch at 2.30 tml!!!. her meeting's at 4.30. argh. anyway stupid Piggy gave me this "monster" sweet which looked totally harmless and tasted wonderful in my boredem. till Tim Chan started laughin at me...with blue lips, blue teeth and blue tongue. grr. well soon after we found the "purple" monster sweet gone lar. haha i wonder who took it. went to Queensway with Fong to buy her SHOES. such a rich woman. buy 2 pairs at one shot. haha. Joel Pang happened to b there and he happily msg me and ask me find him and jeremy at Macs when i juz walked to the busstop. and i got blamed for tt. -_-. soon after i realised someone gave me the wrong directions to Dover. coz my 33 turned to NUS!. luckily my mum was supposed to pick me frm there... J2 is starting to get stressful...not tt its stressful now...juz tihnking of wads in store for us is stressful enuff. heard they decided to do away with our mid yr exams this yr...since our sports seasons are all pushed back...:)...but SPA is in 3 weeks and terms is on 21st feb onwards!. so fast....realli hope i can keep my conc. in lectures and tuts man...esp. with Mr Loo's droning in Bio lec. Simplicity and perfection are things people always go for. but are always hindered by other things. What may be perfect in someone's eyes mayb be defect in another's. Why make life so complicated?...simplicity may seem slipshot...but it mayb juz be the perfect solution. to me at least. i guess being satisfied with what u have will make u happy...surely everyone has sth to be happy abt...juz whether u look at it this way. or u look at the things tt go bad for u...why i said this? i don't know...juz another thought "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" -1 Thessalonians5:16-18

Juannnn [10:56 PM]
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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
a dead long day...
long day man...when it was morning it felt like afternoon and falling half asleep in rm6.11 with full blast air con and a runny nose isn't v. nice. i wanna go join their orientation!!! even with aircon and the windows closed u can hear them cheering lar...frm the SIXTH floor. haha. hope my flu and sore throat doens't get worse. its terrible not being able to swallow properly...grr. tml still got CCA exhibition. gotta man the "squash stall"...haha i dun like Tues time table...onli one free period in the mornin...and its a long draggy day. ending with PE. argh. i tink the teachers are getting nicer though...mayb coz they dun haf the stress of rushin the syllabus YET. plus 3/4 of my class is gone...so sad. 5 retained, 5 taking supp. papers these few days. and abt 5 more OGLs. leaving 10 of us pathetically stuck in class. 2SD4 and J2 sound wierd and foreign haha. chinese lec was super boring...1 half hour...listening to this guy talk abt CHINA'S HISTORY. following which we had HEALTH TALK abt CHOLESTEROL haha. Meow and Moses were damn farnie lar...they took this video of Mdm Kee sitting down on a chair and disappearing and three of us were laughin. suddenly the lift door opened on the 5th floor and there she was in the lift. haha. then IN the lift Meow happily lifted his phone to her face and started talking to her an filming at the same time. and she left knowing nth. even the teacher behind her saw the whole video and was laughin haha. *evil*

Anthony Muki Tan was quite amusing too. it all started when Farrah needed help in "STH" and he tried to "HELP". tt already caused an uproar. and nx thing we knew. XH Farrah and i were in math lec and suddenly muki tan came in 15 mins late. and he doesn'te ven belong to our lecture group!. his reason: oh. my whole lecture group got no notes. so i came up here to borrow some.


Juannnn [8:53 PM]
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Monday, January 03, 2005
who m i?
yest's msg realli set me thinking...and probably many others. abt who are u?. the preacher said if i ask u who are u. wad would be ur ans?. think of it...most people would juz introduce themselves by name and probably their occupation at the moment. how many would actually ans "i'm a follower of Christ". to God be ALL glory...Auntie Kar Foon said. everytime we gain glory, though we give most to the Lord, we being human are temped to keep tt little percent of glory for ourselves. but what Auntie Kar Foon said is true, we are created by God, to bring Glory to him, so ALL glory should go to him. its a scary thought tt ur days are already numbered even b4 u were born. that God has planned ur whole life, juz that u dunno his plan-yet. it sets u thinking whether sometimes are things realli meant to be tt way. God created us in the way tt best maximises our potential. so as long as we follow his directions, theres nth to worry abt.

Juannnn [6:36 PM]
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first day of sch!!!
yest was the first YE of 2005 and there were arnd 70 ppl!. i think the onli other time we seen so many ppl was during the combine worship with SJC. quite happy tt my Bro told Uncle Ruben tt he enjoyed himself and he will be coming every week frm now on...after dinner i juz slacked the rest of the night away...and went into a frenzy when XH msg me at 11 plus telling me to rem. my report card. yea i still can't find it. :( anyway had a hard time trying to sleep yest night. till i went to read the whole book of ephesians at 3am. haha...then i went over to sleep on my bro's pull out bed. not v. successful but a little better. there was crazy jam everywhere this morning. and i felt damn farnie coz my bro's coming with me to sch for once...and my dad happily dropped my bro outside ACSI and told me to walk to ACJC -_-. he usually drops me at the backgate. haha. supposed to meet XH at 7am. but i reached sch at 7.20. and she wasn't even there!. it seemed like a foreign land again but it was great seeing old faces from 1SD4. quite sad tt 5 of them are leaving us...Lim Pui Yee seemed nicer than 2004. haha but who knows wad she's thinking. but i guess she also wans all of us to do well in the 'A's and not spoil her form teacher reputation. love my new time table...i practically haf an av. of two free periods per day excluding lunch and recess. and after lunch everyday its either practical, PE or chinese. PLUS. after first three months. when chi is canceled out...my thurs end at 12.30!. haha. walked arnd with XH since we got let off early today...but orientation 2004 seemed such a short time ago...now tt u're a senior u can hardly believe it. haha.mayb 2SD4 will finally get a junior class since we din haf a senior class. super tired now...and i juz found out sth...tts not v. nice...it hurts when u find out tt people u trust break ur trust...esp. when they themselves know how its like when ppl break their trust. theres onli this v. thin line between truth and lie. a change of one word can cause a big difference in the truth.but why m i brought into all these things when i din even start it...why can't frens be frens forever...and isnt there a saying tt frens are people whom u can trust, whom u can cast ur worries upon and they'll stand by u. i tink this statement seriously has a problem now. "Be strong and courageous"

Juannnn [5:20 PM]
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Saturday, January 01, 2005
wad a memorable new yr's day
neva in my life haf i expected myself to stand in front of the whole main congregation sharing with them abt 2004 and how i've grown in the Lord. i actually wanted to back out when YE saboed my name but somehow sth was telling me to go up and share coz i wun regret. i din. though frm the start i had stage fright, i was suprised that words actually came outta my mouth. i tot of declining to share. but juz felt tt God wanted me to say sth...spread to the whole congregation how he had brought YE up...and how he worked in many other ways. i've been troubled lately, but after the sharing yest, i felt peace and comfort. actually think of it, what Joel Pang said was quite amusing, "You mean u went up on stage last yr to share and talked until this yr???" b4 tt went to Tim's house to bake cookies with Ian Audrey and Huimin, who complained tt it was MY fault the cookies were flat haha coz i added extra choc chips and it was damn sweet. but it was nice k!. our first batch were literally"boiling" though...i tink the oven overheated. and running outta time, Ian and i juz went against Huimin and made 2 HUGE cookies which actually turned out to be a success. hee. in between playing Boggle and pictionary to keep us entertained, plus the wonderful and yummy dinner prepared specially by Uncle Pak Chee, cream of mushroom and some special kinda spaghetti fried with olive oil and spices. then Tim drove all of us to Safra Mount Faber for bowling with the rest of YE. it was super fun...i tink its the first time the whole of YE congregated as frens, not as Ye, since this was arranged by Paul and Jon. and yea i finally got a STRIKE in 2 yrs. haha. nice way to end the yr. juz we all having fun talking and hanging out. b4 all cramming into 195 to church for watch night it was the first watch night service i attended and it did leave a big impact, partly coz of the reason right above. but somehow u could sense the homeliness of the whole church congregating together and the peace i felt. Pastor shared abt how unpredictable life can be, eg. the Tsunamis, no one ever saw tt one coming. it was juz all too sudden, the lives lost, the destruction caused. It suddenly jolts one into thinking abt the future, how someone can be alive today and be gone tml, for gd. i guess its how u see it. death is not the end, its more like a new beginning in a different place with the Lord. anyway, juz pray for the victims of the Tsunamis and their families. we caught the last train at 1.15 to Clementi and went for supper...yea. Rojak freak i m, i ate Rojak again. HAPPY GERALD and YAN LEEN?! haha. plus popiah...but it was super ex lar. i tink the woman was practically cheating our money. and we went to 7-11 to buy the whole pkt of instant mee goreng. trudged our way back to Gerald's house at arnd 2.30am... Gerald got us to sit in a circle and we began sharing, our hopes for the new yr, and any troubles frm 2004. it was gd hearing everyone's honest opinions. we talked mostly abt YE, but i guess i got a clearer picture now. Tim's ending was realli nice, talking abt all our positive pts and encouraging all of us individually. after listening to him u realli feel like wow, u can make a difference, no matter how "small" an action u tink it is. we eventually ended the whole sharing at 4.15am. Myrtle half zonked out haha. and got down to our MAH JONG business!. had fun teaching those tt wanted to learn and playing at the same time. then Sarah, Amanda and i went to cook the mee goreng. which was snapped up by the guys in no time lar. Poor Gerald being the host onli had one small mouthful haha. Gerald's mum was realli nice, first time i see a parent stay up the whole night and enjoy with us. i felt so bad! coz she made me my fav. black coffee but i was so tired i forgot abt it and fell asleep at 645am. haha. hardly had enuff sleep lar. at 7.45am Gerald and Yan Leen came sounding this stupid alarm which sounded like some cartoon thingy and they dumped stubbs on us! ARGH. STINKY DOG! (ok i'm jk...he's getting cuter haha) then sidney went to poke me awake and while walking outta the room i tripped over Gerald's internet router and my side hit the corner of his table lar...still red and bruised. but Auntie's coffee was realli gd! :) Then the few of us went to MRT to pick the COGS ppl who din stay over and some SJC ppl... Soccer was fun, with a bit of bball...haha...though the girls din get to play in the real court. It started raining, but everyone bonded well and had fun still. i tink its great seeing SJC and COGS getting along so well. no stiff competition, more of frenly stuff. we still played in the heavy rain, ending up drenched tired but i guess we did enjoy ourselves. then we went back to Gerald's house to shower n dry up b4 meeting SJC peeps for lunch...which was. ya the DUCK RICE again. and back to his house palying mah jong till i knocked out. anyway thx gerald, for letting ur house out for one night of destruction...ESP...UR BED!!! so comfy...hahaha back to sch on monday...sigh. can't wait to see everyone! esp. xiaohui! haha...my bro's going to YE tml...hope he'll continue to go down not because he feels compelled to, but coz he is hungry for spiritual growth. at least he's growing up...sec1 on monday already...haha. "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God" -Ephesians 2:21

Juannnn [8:03 AM]
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Centre Of My Life




 

 

 

 

 

Let my walk speak loud

And my words be true

Let my life be whole

With my eyes on you

 


Lord I'm stepping out

From the comfort zone

Letting go of me

Holding on to You

 

 



Freedom comes

When I call you Lord

You are Lord, my God


 



You are the centre of it all

The universe declares in awe

Your majesty, I surrender all



I make You the centre of my life

Lord I respond with all I am

You placed in me the song

Of heaven's melody



Your Majesty

I live to sing Your song


 


 

 

 



 

 

I have found Your peace

It replaces anything

You have done it all

I can trust in You


 

So I'm stepping out

From the comfort zone

Letting go of me

Holding on to You

 

 



Freedom comes

When I call you Lord

You are Lord, my God


 



 

You are the centre of it all

The universe declares in awe

Your majesty, I surrender all



I make You the centre of my life

Lord I respond with all I am

You placed in me the song

Of heaven's melody



Your Majesty

I live to sing Your song



 


 

 



 

 

 

 

 

 


 

This is Your song, not mine

This is Your song

That brings healing to this land

 

 

 

This is Your song, not mine

This is Your song

That brings freedom


 

 

This is Your song, not mine

This is Your song

That brings healing to this land

 

 

This is Your song, not mine

This is Your song

That brings freedom

 

 


 

Freedom comes

When I call you Lord

Freedom comes

When I call you Lord

You are Lord, my God


 



 

You are the centre of it all

The universe declares in awe

Your majesty, I surrender all

 



I make You the centre of my life

Lord I respond with all I am

You placed in me the song

Of heaven's melody




Your Majesty

I live to sing Your song

 

Your Majesty

I live to sing Your song

 

Your Majesty

I live to sing Your song

 

Your Majesty




My life will sing Your song!